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Stale air

2012-01-28T00:24:00.000+08:00

Chinese new year was a disappointment and its least likely cause was being sick. Feel like travelling far far away. Jumping onto a plane and ending up in a foreign land. Holland V was great, pepper lunch w cousins and work tmr. I might live another day free from you and your shit. Still sick.

Loving Kina Grannis and her originals.

2012-01-13T01:10:00.002+08:00

Nice rest today visiting ikea and playing with hair dye. Rest of the month looks exciting wheeeee.

My sugar

2012-01-08T05:55:00.002+08:00

This stupid pie is chewing onto my hair but I love him so.

I have no idea why am I still up at this ungodly hour.

Our hands are stained

2012-01-05T04:57:00.000+08:00

in a day where no birds could sing for swelling hearts happiness is painfully disregarded as it shrivels and shrills like salt is to flesh. we all live in cavities where our hands are stained. when throats are washed with dark water the actuality of love is questioned. in this world without end concept holds a struggle to close our own pandora's box. is it by capability or by believe that our longing for one, not two nor three stands real and lust comes in pair? what was before when the end was not? no man is pure, no man is pure.

Blue Valentine

2012-01-04T13:17:00.001+08:00

"I know they must've loved each other at one time right?... How do you trust your feelings when they can just disappear like that?"

2012-01-04T13:10:00.002+08:00

Raw as we are

2012-01-04T01:23:00.000+08:00

Three days into 2012 I'm sitting in bed coughing up lungful of unpleasantness, laptop on my lap, heavy hearted from watching Blue Valentine. Trying to work on some slightly serious tasks here but my mind is distracted. Suddenly it's a new year. I'm here, now, exactly where I wanted myself to fast forward to when I was living a life of what I saw was full of misery last year or the year before. Now is great. I love how I can wake up in the morning with the sun shining today, or how I can sit outside on the porch for the longest time doing absolutely nothing except for feeling the warm breeze watching coco chase after birds while cars pass. But I wish I hadn't been so filled with gloom in the past, so eager to move forward I forgot to be thankful for what I had in those times of despair. If you were to ask me to go through the last two years of my life again, I would have unhesitatingly said no. But to skip it if I were given a choice? No I won't want to, now that it has become the past. Because in the last two long years I came across so many people who have, like how some would say, left footprints in my life. Sometimes they hurt, other times I wish they stayed, and some did stay. But I'm grateful for all. Then there were moments when I learned and grew, moments I wished never have passed, moments to be thankful for. All those moments, amidst all the other moments that made hearts dip and eyes go weary, were carelessly given less credit then. So now I learned my last lesson which 2010 and 2011 have given me. All this chuck of words after words letters after letters may seem like verbal vomit and that's okay, you don't have to understand it. But I thank you for caring enough to read. I just need this so that like always, when I look back at my archive my past will unravel in words before my eyes and trigger important memories that I might accidentally lose along the way. Or maybe look back and chide myself for how ignorant I was. Here, now, I thank my dear friends and family for what we have been through. Here, now, I wish to become a better person, to continue to learn and understand the disarray and beautiful world we all live in.

Winter winds

2011-12-25T03:07:00.000+08:00

I love Mumford & Sons! Can't stop listening to them such an awesome band. Nice to have M&S on replay keeping me company as Christmas rolls in.. Husky honest homely voice. Merry christmas.

As the winter winds litter London with lonely hearts
Oh the warmth in your eyes swept me into your arms
Was it love or fear of the cold that led us through the night?
For every kiss your beauty trumped my doubt

And my head told my heart
"Let love grow"
But my heart told my head
"This time no
This time no"

2011-12-25T03:02:00.001+08:00

Aww I miss this my dad used to do this when I was little.

The past was glass bottles of pure white

2011-12-23T00:59:00.000+08:00

Look at this tiny friend sweetest thing ever.

So tired after selling uniforms and hanging at Siloso, a good thing, since sleep's so messed up now. So glad I'm meeting Mag tmrw cannot wait to talk to her, not sure if I can fully convey what I feel tho. Anyway hopefully we can get out of this ASAP. LOVE YOU. I want to go on long trips why is this trip so short. I want to fill my lungs with chilly air and let the cold wind kiss my skin and not worry about how time passes. I want to see cars and people make their way through a different city, to pause and absorb it all in, not busy myself with photographing and then forget to see the world with my own eyes. Four days is so short. Planned to go on an exciting journey on christmas' eve but now I'm not so sure afterall can't find anyone to trudge alongside with me or anybody who find this as exciting as me. Oh well. Happy holidays!

When foreign light hits a familiar face, it's the same

2011-12-23T00:05:00.001+08:00

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives

2011-12-21T01:46:00.000+08:00

I tell myself over and over again that I have to keep this, keep you just as how it is because this is important and perfect to me. Suddenly when I looked I wasn't looking anymore and acceptance was like swallowing rocks down my throat. It scared the shit out of me how bizarre the pricks in my heart form a swelling ache a stupid illegitimate non justifiable almost nonsensical mental state so ridiculous I need to slap myself out of it. What is now is all I want, really. But it feels so foreign right now, I'm so afraid it is impossible.

2011-12-03T00:00:00.000+08:00

Closing time
Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end

Yeah, I know who I want to take me home
I know who I want to take me home
I know who I want to take me home
Take me home

Stupid girl

2011-12-01T01:49:00.001+08:00

He put it on me, I put it on,
Like there was nothing wrong.
It didn't fit, it wasn't right,
Wasn't just the size.

They say you know,
When you know.
I don't know.

I didn't feel
The fairytale feeling, no.
Am I a stupid girl
For even dreaming that I could?

I threw my baggage away today

2011-11-25T22:53:00.001+08:00

When the memories came flooding back today as they always do I started to wince at them what does this say what does it signify? That I longer save a room for you in my heart, that you have finally left like you never came? It is relieving. I can deal with that.

Hasn't been Wednesday in a long time

2011-11-24T00:13:00.001+08:00

Met up with this girl today heehee luv her, although I ended up doing 3/4 mcqs hahaha. Somehow when I talk to her my mind will auto-sort itself out. [MOONCAKE FASE]

Last night I was so tired but so happy I couldn't fall asleep. It's so amazing because that has never happened before. I know there is still mcq and all, and I promise I will switch on my full study mode from tmrw onwards, but I can't help but feel a heavy weight lift off my chest. Happy dance happy dance happy dance! And KHADZ you bluff me hahaha I can't download anything from that site its exactly like the one we went to when you guys were at my place!! HAHAHA stupid khadz lifted my hopes momentarily I WANNA SEE YOU SOON. I need to learn from you move my butt and start running again! Oh I know what dec outing can be!!!! Text you tmrw so excited. Anyway after talking to shermin today reality is like a smack in the face, opposite from what we have all along wanted howww shermin? And the world is such a weird place with so many different perspectives and everyone is so often caught up in their own.

MAGLOVE, I don't know when you will see this you're probably on the plane to Korea right now just want to tell you stay strong and happy ok? Remember when we spoke about the day for all of this to end and for us to gain liberation from all the crazy books and stress we have to take responsibility for? It's right now! And it's not worth for sadness and anger or what you are going through now to take away what you have been looking forward to. I know it's easier said than done, but just try okay? Put everything to the back of your mind and celebrate your trip and freedom. Love you very very much and I hate to see you unhappy ;(

2011-11-19T22:37:00.001+08:00

Russell Brand on interviewing Katy after first meeting:"oh my word, katy perry, the young lady who has made lesbianism all-the-more fashionable. i don't know if she is the daughter of icon and tennis player, fred perry. that's just one of the things we can find out when we interview the inordinately attractive katy perry...it's inoffensive, part of the english language. it means it's beyond logic and rational of your sexy appeal, like you cut through the conscious mind like a hot knife through the butter of my soul. i like you katy i find you attractive. let's talk about my dear friend Noel Gallagher of Oasis through what happened when we met. you start, go on, what happened when we did a but of filming for my forthcoming film 'get him to the greek', produced by judd apatow..katy perry done a little cameo in the film and there's a bit where we were pretending to be a couple, because i play a rockstar in the film, there's a bit where we are on a balcony and there's meant to be paparazzi taking photographs and what happened was, we sort of snogged on the balcony, but there's a bit katy, that i'd like to bring up, where the shutters or the balcony were closed and me and katy were alone on the Paramount lot, in this room. i goes 'okay so we'll do this thing, i suppose we'll go out there and just snog' and she moved in towards me, we kissed, there was no one there! we were just alone in a room kissing! it wasn't even part of the film!"

Trust Russell Brand to explain the meaning of inordinate melts my heart 'like you cut through the conscious mind like a hot knife through the butter of my soul' seriously? You should look up the word in the dictionary and be in awe at the difference which will make you want to look closely at the connotation of each and every word he has to say. Love his straightforwardness and his choice of words and intelligent humor he is so attractive with his british accent how can he not be perfect for Katy? I think he looks pretty after a clean up. Sweetest couple ever please please last forever unlike any other Hollywood couple.

Ok bye bye enough of this sweet witty man econs now sigh. I'm blogging cause my brain was, it still is saturated and needed some humane reminders like Russell Brand to tell me that the world is still round, on top of some cute kids from kids react aww. Had a good flood texting with Shermin just now can't wait to see this girl next wed <3

My sis just made me watch Charlie the Unicorn I can't believed I watchd the entire three episodes and laughed like mad. What has Econs done to me!

2011-10-19T00:01:00.001+08:00

Kill me now kill me now kill me now what's wrong with me what happened to the determination I possessed two years ago where is it why is it gone it's gone.

For you the heart didn't weep but
Raging fire could not burn
What was there was precious
Still precious behind a timeless fortress

His words.

2011-10-14T22:55:00.001+08:00

“No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true. Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” —Steve Jobs

Girl with greens and colors

2011-10-02T00:51:00.001+08:00

Life as she speaks
A common dime viewed as gold
The colors she wear behind perceived
Beautiful

A painting on canvas she speaks
Oh! Work of art so gingerly crafted
Her greens she plants so full
Senseless

Her teachings she speaks
Feeble unto me unto the world never alike
Her ignorance her greens and colors
Why

2011-09-29T20:16:00.001+08:00

Screw you. >:(

Pirate Radio

2011-09-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

Great movie.

2011-09-22T16:57:00.001+08:00

I JUST TOOK THE MOST GUILT FREE HEARTY NAP AFTER TWO SLEEP-DEPRIVED WEEKS OF CRAZY PROLONGED HEADACHE AND DIZZY SPELL ATTACKS I FEEL SO HAPPY NOW IMMA SUCH A HAPPY GIRL.On the side note I'm going to be dead if history repeats during A levels. Hooray.

2011-09-19T22:42:00.001+08:00

My brain is extremely tired but my body isn't. I think my brain with implode if I try to insert more information into it. My head hurts.I wanna sleep. Help. ):

Do you hear that love?

2011-09-18T22:49:00.001+08:00

Take my hand, I’ll teach you to dance.
I’ll spin you around, won’t let you fall down.
Would you let me lead, you can step on my feet.
Give it a try, it’ll be alright.

The room’s hush, hush,
And now’s our moment.
Take it in feel it all and hold it.
Eyes on you, eyes on me.
We’re doing this right.

Do you hear that love?
They’re playing our song.
Do you think we’re ready yet?
Love I’m really feeling it.
Do you hear that love?
Do you hear that love?

2011-08-29T01:48:00.001+08:00

Why am I not feeling sleepy yet???

Counting sheep

2011-08-28T03:26:00.002+08:00

This is horrible horrible insomnia. I am left with choice but to come here. I am not focusing on my work and I am not falling asleep. When my mind is left alone it does a lot of thinking. A lot of thinking usually leads me here.

I really dread A levels. I wanna get it over and done with quick. I don't know what's with me lately, I am feeling more individualistic than ever. I want to walk the streets alone. I want to be able to do things free from any judgements. I want to not worry about the tone in my voice not matching up to what I feel in my heart. I am so easily annoyed now, with senseless behaviour, with dependent people, with pretentious people, with other all sorts of people. It kind of worry me, sets me thinking about what kind of person I was and have become. I realised that this is sort of what I have always wanted, to be more of myself, to live by what I feel not what other people think. I find myself less eager to fix misunderstands, less eager to do the explaining. I mean, if people want to think what they think, letting them be wouldn't make my life any worse off. You can't please everyone out there, people say. All I did was to truly understand.

Sometimes I do wonder if I brought it overboard, but no. People don't make insensitive comments and put their friends down all the time. People also don't not place trust in friends and thinks that every friend out there is out to bring them down. I really don't know if every incident was a purpose or an accident, but it was one time too many. I let it go so many times, so many times. I really can't look at you the same way anymore. I know my attitude is horrendous now, but it came to an extent that I can't help it. Maybe you will never figure it out and think of me in anyway you inferred and deduced. Maybe you figured it all out. No matter this is genuinely how I feel now. And I think it's really dumb to dwell on this, so please stop sending those mind games signals, because I am not even playing mind games with you so get over it. All I really want to do now is to work hard and get what I want. Some stress is probably what I need to get rid of right now.

Sitting like a Boss.

2011-07-13T19:25:00.000+08:00

2011-07-12T01:05:00.001+08:00

2011-07-12T00:58:00.002+08:00

^^

2011-07-12T00:50:00.003+08:00

HI MAG LOVE YOU TO BITS!!!

I AM SO GLAD WE MET TODAY HEEHEEHEE

2011-07-02T00:59:00.000+08:00

TINY DESCHANELS AWW.

It's 1A.M.

2011-07-02T00:56:00.001+08:00

I really want to do some limitless intense shopping right now.
I really want to eat spoonful of milo powder right now.
I reaaaally want to sing out loud, like really really loud right now.
Weird. Oh well.

2011-06-26T01:44:00.001+08:00

Let it all out, let it all out.
I hope things change for the better.

1111

2011-06-25T23:11:00.007+08:00

I wish you had never appeared in our lives. You have cause tears fury and nothing else. Does it truly make you happy, when you know you're screwing us up? Don't tell me you know no business about hurting people, I think you might very well be enjoying it. Don't tell me you're a good person when your actions speak otherwise.

I don't understand why, why does it take so much contemplation to choose the option that is so obvious and so much more sensible. Don't you see who's messing up your mind and who's not? Can't you feel what they felt, when those words sliced right through their hearts, those hearts that have loved and cared for you not matter rain or shine? Can't you tell genuine words apart from words carefully drawn together, little strings pulling you into this horrible, horrible state? What exactly matters to you, people who will never leave you behind, or someone who could spin up another tale full of pin and needles anytime, leaving behind not just one but many of us torn and broken? Does it really make sense to you, that this is something worth fighting for when you step back and look at who you are fighting?

I don't understand at all, I really don't. I hated this right from the beginning, I hate being the one observing everything from both sides, I hate to see everyone hurting everyone, I hate to be accused of siding with either side alongside with my fruitless attempts to make everyone see clearly, I hate this shit. Thanks a lot for screwing up our lives, you can take a bow and leave everyone alone now and I will kick your ass, not in my mind anymore but personally if you ever speak in such a horrid tone and hurt people dear to me again.

2011-06-15T00:44:00.001+08:00

This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

It was enchanting to meet you
All I know is I was enchanted to meet you

2011-06-13T23:40:00.001+08:00

Sigh can't wait for the day when I can snuggle up and watch Bones Season One to Six non-stop. They are like hot vanillas. ♥

2011-05-10T20:58:00.005+08:00

2011-05-10T20:55:00.004+08:00

2011-05-10T20:52:00.000+08:00

HI THIS IS COCO ^^

Don't really want to talk about how I don't like school because nobody will really understand what I'm feeling. Stress is really getting to me sorry khadlove for calling you out of the blue the other day heh heh. Thanks dear love yaaa. <3 My greatest wish at this very moment is for school to be cancelled tmrw okay bye work time.

>:•| >:•| >:•|

2011-04-17T14:14:00.001+08:00

I never knew a huge surge of happiness could coexist with massive amount of sadness.

Realization without a bang

2011-04-13T00:02:00.006+08:00

Hi I am a guilty but still very happy girl I've just painted my nails when I promised myself to do math, feeling kind of full from three cones of Ben and Jerry's, thinking about how nice short small chats can be meaningful and enjoying the fact that I had quite a few of them recently. It has been really long since I kind of rambled on with my day, feeling great about it. (:

I have been thinking about how changes could come so rapidly, a change within a change within a change in such a short period of time. It scares me a little when I realised things were so different not long ago and how it was a different kind of different a longer while ago. I mean I'm not feeling emotional about anything at this point of time, I am feeling okay and there are things which are different in good ways despite the bad, I'm just rather taken aback when this fact is showing clearer and clearer as I stumble into the world of Grown-Ups,-Do-What-You-Are-Suppose-To-Do, though I'm really trying to take each step forward with caution. Changes in relationships, in positions, in the environment, in the mind, in the heart. Despite having people whom are dear around me daily I feel somewhat lonely, like I said I don't feel emotional or down or what not, it's just something I feel and it feels alone. This doesn't make anyone special less special, family or friends less significant or important. For all I know it isn't a bad feeling. It is comparable to the feeling of yearning for solitude, for say sometimes it's really peaceful to walk along streets without having to keep up with footsteps of others, or when reading a book by the window in a coffeehouse with aroma of coffee is therapeutic. Okay maybe I don't yearn for this and it feels neither peaceful nor therapeutic, it doesn't feel good but it doesn't feel bad either. Maybe my caution steps aren't in vain.

Why life?

2011-03-17T23:46:00.004+08:00

Why is it that life allow us meet different people of great significance to different phases of it and pull them away in the next? All my life people are constantly entering and leaving and I'm really tired of it. I couldn't help but wonder if the future is a gonna be a continuous cycle of touch and go. All of a sudden after being so accustom to knowing every single details of someone's life so dear to mine I find everyone drifting on in separate directions, like what I had with every special friend was nothing but a dream I'm desperately trying to hold on to. What so when someone touches my life it'll be somekind of curse for the soul to be reduced to a stranger again? You don't know how saddening it is to lose people when they are not even lost, just right there, whole and intact as we stroll alongside on parallel paths. Really, life? If I am suppose to learn to get use to this at least make the same person come and go and come and go, cause every other person is a new hole in my heart.

#Prayforjapan

2011-03-16T22:26:00.002+08:00

Today, I suddenly recalled a scene from Japan trip. We were taking the bullet train and it stopped at one of the stations. A little girl of about eight or nine lugged along a luggage bag and boarded the train alone. She sat a row in front of us and started waving goodbye to her mom, who was standing on the platform clearly in view through the window. She waved back. They waved to each other relentlessly for minutes before the train left for another city. The little girl sat back, took her bread out, ate and wept silently.

I am hoping and praying that would not be the last time she ever saw her mom.

2011-03-16T01:23:00.000+08:00

I realized this could be a little selfish of me, I need to learn to let people go sometimes.

2011-03-14T23:08:00.002+08:00

I think I am really lousy I had been holding back really fine the entire day and I had to crumble at the worst timing ever sigh. I can't help doubting my own ability after this. Half of me really want to base all explanations on my stupid knee, but I can't help questioning myself if this is my limit?
It really sucks to have let the entire team and everyone and myself down. Comparable, or worst than heartbreak.

Well I will find the strength to recover, get right back on my feet and prove myself wrong.

2011-03-06T22:02:00.001+08:00

There is no combination of words I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing, but I can try for your heart ♥
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a, shoebox of photographs
With sepiatone loving

Mmm, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, we'll look at the stars when we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

2011-03-06T21:49:00.003+08:00

Fits perfectly

2011-03-03T23:29:00.004+08:00

You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die.

This was my past, my present, and where I'm heading to. Again.
I can't turn around and make it alright. Still, I go back all the time.

FLIPPED INSIDE OUT.

2011-02-24T22:51:00.003+08:00

INTERNAL CONFLICTS.
It spoiled, no mending, no fixing, but I can’t throw it away, I can’t okay.
Still waiting btw. This tearing-me-inside-out horrible heart-sinking tiring long wait that I will soon wouldn’t be able to bear. It’s messing up my judgement and my heart and my brain.
I feel like I suck at everything now I can't do my subjects and can't do everything properly it's so demoralising and frustrating. ): The more I think about the future the more I don't want to grow up it's such a scary world out there sigh. I am really trying to concentrating on staying true to myself.

As if a confirmation, a “really so that’s what really happened?” could make things any better. As if after an explanation will come a “how can we fix this” instead of awkward silence and that unknown question mark still hanging in mid air but enlarged hundred and thousand of times.

Sometimes when I let things out from my pocketful of secrets it means that I can no longer bottle it up. It's ok that you can't make any sense out of it, this is just really healthy and relieving for me hee.

2011-02-20T23:11:00.003+08:00

"Today, i was sitting in the car at a local grocery store. i saw a man about 60 slowly walk out of the store, look around to make sure no one was around, then jump on his cart and ride it down the hill to his car, all while shouting weeeeeee. he then got off the cart, put his stuff in the car, and act like nothing happened. new favoite old guy ever. MLIA"
-MyLifeIsAverage.com

2011-02-20T23:01:00.002+08:00

Why so saddening?

2011-02-13T22:03:00.001+08:00

WHY IS THIS HAPPENING WHY IS THIS HAPPENING WHY IS THIS HAPPENING.

2011-02-09T00:39:00.000+08:00

Do you know?

It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep

2011-02-08T00:10:00.001+08:00

It was so cute when my grandpa and grandaunt past by their old old hometown and started reminiscing about their past like how they use to cycle down the road and how they are suddenly in their 70s. And scary stuff like how they almost drown and died in the river we drove past when their boat capsized. Made 14h long road trip a little more bearable. I hope that when I am old my stories will be as exciting and my grandchildren would want to listen to them, and that it would make them smile too.

Today I thought of revamping my desktop background with pictures with people who mean a lot to me but after a while I realised that I can't do that cause that will be to many photos.

2011-01-30T23:56:00.001+08:00

Fortune cookies told me that I will get fat and my love life will fail. Really?
Love the sound of rain and the wind! I know everyone's complaining how Singapore isn't sunny anymore. For some reason the rain makes me happier and the wind let me think clearly. (: Can't wait for next week! Get the hell out of these eat strawberries from strawberry plants see many many orange and yellow roses can't wait can't wait.

2011-01-30T03:43:00.001+08:00

My brain could burst into fragments already.

When you treat someone like treasure, it’s really devastating when the deeper you dig, the uglier it gets.

Sometimes you really just can’t see good in everyone anymore.

Relationships can change faster than they were formed. Exceptionally faster. Teaches me what’s heartbreak.

Is it really that hard for everything to be the same given a factor of change and enough time?

Are these things seriously gonna screw people's brains and feelings for life?!?

2011-01-29T19:06:00.002+08:00

Worst start-of-the-year ever. Seriously? ):

2011-01-25T23:07:00.000+08:00

I miss old airport road tauhuay!!! SAD FASE.

Boys and Girls

2011-01-23T00:28:00.001+08:00

Thank goodness。(:

2010-12-31T03:13:00.000+08:00

Can't sleep. ):

I want to read the original Winnie the Pooh books!!!
I am missing so many zillions of people )': I am missing so many moments that I know I had to cherish in the past and I tried but memories are just memories I really want to relive them again. I dislike things being so different now but nobody can help it. You know sometimes it's so funny how moments that are short-lived are in fact what made these people and time more precious. It's like the greatest known fact but somehow I will always be surprised by the magnitude of aftereffects no matter how many times I experienced it before or braced myself for it. Sigh. Cest la vie.

Ok bye.
Sorry I think I just made mindless rants.

Winnie.

2010-12-28T22:27:00.004+08:00

"It's today!" said Piglet.
"My favourite day," said Pooh.

"Well," said Pooh, "what I like best--", and then he had to stop and think. Because although eating honey was a very good thing to do, there was a moment just before you began to eat it which was better than when you were, but he didn't know what it was called.

"I wonder what Piglet is doing," thought Pooh. "I wish I were there to be doing it, too."

Pooh looked at his two paws. He knew that one of them was the right, and he knew that when you had decided which one of them was the right, then the other was the left, but he never could remember how to begin.

“If you live to be hundred, I hope I live to be hundred minus one day, so I never have to live without you.”

"My spelling is Wobbly. It's good spelling but it Wobbles, and the letters get in the wrong places. "

I would love to meet a stranger at the airport. ♥

(Insert Face)

2010-11-19T00:57:00.001+08:00

I've finally gotten back my dear mac I hope you have stopped giving me trouble for good. Give you thumbs up first (Y)

I think Masterchef is such an interesting show today they baked cupcakes make me wanna bake cupcakes too. Anyway did I tell you the blueberry muffins turned out to be somewhat sucky so I shall not try them ever again. I baked cinnamon roll! Well I think turned out to be a rather tasty caramelised cinnamon bun (: Hehe. My fingers are itching I am craving (to eat) apple coffee cake now, which makes me crave to bake it,, which remind me I hadn't made it since eons ago. But I don't have cream cheese, and is really late at night (insert major sad fase :'( )

Imma rushing to tidy up stuffs and tying up lose ends before Taiwan, I want to tear my hair out because I am so afraid I won't be able to complete everything. I like being a busy bee buzzing around at times, but other times I turned into a lazy girl and just want to read my book all day longgggg.

I think there's something really wrong with me and there's something really wrong with you.
>:(

Popeye eats spinach, I eat spinach (Y)

2010-11-07T01:30:00.003+08:00

Hi I made SPINACH QUICHE today. It tasted ok I prefer the starbucks one tho hahaha okay sorry I promise I'll improve heeheehee.

Tmrw I shall bake Blueberry Bran Muffinsssss! Sorry I can help but to keep baking and baking because baking makes the world goes round!

Anyway I was telling Sherminnnn the joke over the phone that I baked quiche and she was like "CHEESE? How do you make it with milk and what, VIRUS?!?!" HAHAHA. And I have to hang up cause I have no guts to go downstairs after watching Paranormal Act hehe, sorry Shermin hope you're having a blast with Harry Potter now. Today was so slow I just zen-ed all the way slowly made quiche, slowly watched tv, slowly cut my nails, slowly played the guitar, slowly did veggie facial, slowly wasted my time away... Ok sorry now I am boring you by slowly telling you all the stupid stuff I did all day long.

Ok bye darlings.

UrbanDictionary.com

2010-11-01T22:45:00.005+08:00

Heatbreakophobic

A person who is so afraid of getting hurt by their partner that they try not to fall in love and reject anyone who tries to build a serious relationship towards them.

Heartculez
Men with big hearts that love unconditionally but will turn the opposite when there heart is broken.
Heartex
A procedure to remove the heart in the case of a heart attack.
Lust
A large physical attraction for an individual, that is sometimes uncontrollable and completely unreasonable.
Romance
The most weirdest yet exiting feeling ever to be felt in this universe.

2010-11-01T22:24:00.004+08:00

Crazy rain outside.

Snuggle, bed, snuggle, read, read, snuggle, listen to the rain, listen to the wind, read, must I really go to school tmrw?

Saturday

2010-10-30T01:41:00.001+08:00

Keep drinking coffee, stare me down across the table
While I look outside
So many things I’d say if only I were able
But I just keep quiet and count the cars that pass by

You’ve got opinions, man
We’re all entitled to ‘em, but I never asked
So let me thank you for your time, and try not to waste anymore of mine
And get out of here fast

I hate to break it to you babe, but I’m not drowning
There’s no one here to save

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

You sound so innocent, all full of good intent
Swear you know best
But you expect me to jump up on board with you
And ride off into your delusional sunset

I’m not the one who’s lost with no direction
But you’ll never see
You’re so busy making maps with my name on them in all caps
You got the talking down, just not the listening

And who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

All my life I’ve tried to make everybody happy
While I just hurt and hide
Waiting for someone to tell me it’s my turn to decide

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

Let me hold your crown, babe.

King of Anything, Sara Bareilles. Never ever paid attention to the lyrics till on my bus ride home the words falls right into the nook and crannies of my brain like they were meant to be there. Every word of it I swear, even I am amazed by it.

Spent my day doing cip, walked aimlessly in town, read my book in Starbuck, made my way down the the ktigers they are the coolest tiger on Earth!

HALLOWEEN TMRW :D

Half a To-Do List

2010-10-28T23:55:00.000+08:00

Cancelled out half of my To-Do List! I am a happy girllllll (:

Time to read my books (:

Minus Haze

2010-10-25T01:36:00.003+08:00

" My head is throbbing. I need coffee. Leaving the marbled papers in a state of controlled chaos, I walk through the office and past the page's desk in the Reading Room. I am halted by Isabelle's voice saying, "Perhaps Mr. DeTamble can help you," by which she means "Henry, you weasel, where are you slinking off to?" and this astoundingly beautiful amber-haired tall slim girl turns around and looks at me as through I am her personal Jesus. My stomach lurches. Obviously she knows me, and I don't know her. Lord only knows what I've said, done, or promised to this luminous creature, so I am forced to say in my best librarianese, "Is there something I can help you with?" The girl sort of breathes "Henry!" in this very evocative way that convinces me that at some point in time we have a really amazing thing together. This makes it worse that I don't know anything about her, not even her name. I say "Have we met?" and Isabelle givs me a look that says You asshole. But the girl says, "I'm Claire Abshire. I knew you when I was a little girl," and invites me out to dinner. I accept, stunned. "
— The Time Traveler's Wife, Audrey Niffenegger

"Don't you think it's better to be extremely happy for a short while, even if you lose it, than to be just okay for your whole life?"

"I won't ever leave you, even though you're always leaving me."

I've just finished watching THIN (wiki). Heart has broke in million of pieces it's already so hard to watch them struggle imagine how difficult it is to be the one struggling.

No cuddle weather, but be independent day (:

Can't fall asleep. :/

Nothing more ordinary. (:

2010-10-18T20:18:00.003+08:00

I realised something rather extraordinary it's kind of weird I think I lost the ability to sit around and do nothing constantly. I mean a day or two is fine, but after awhile it feel like I really need to do something to get busy or I swear I'll just rot away or evaporate into nothingness, because I'll feel like I am just wasting my life away. I don't know if this is good or bad hee.

Sorry I knew I said I am going to keep all the negativity awayyyy. I just miss you guys a lot. I think my entries are becoming more and more personal and many times I assumed that only my close friends will visit this boring place and read this funny little musings that I have which tends to pop up in random timings. Sometimes that fact that anybody can easily reach here slips out of my mind and just kept typing and typing. Sometimes I got carried away and write like when I am in tumblr. So lovely friends thanks I am fineeeeee (:

Anyway all the stupid stuff aside, life right now: got to catch up with many people last week Halloween Night @ Night Safari with Jeannnn, Dinner with Celeste and Jiamin last time we talked was like last year? MARBLE SLABBED and watched Buried (lit point of view mag hahaha) with Mag I have been craving for more Marble Slab ever since. Shopped, Island Creameried and watched Life As We Know It with Sheriel, Sab was awesome windsurfing and Aikido with Carineeee and Petttt and others.
I don't know why feels like something is missing thooooo :/

I think both of them are so sweet together.
My favourite pastime now is to watch Bones and Criminal Minds and cook heehee.
Hate school.
I need a book.
I need to complete PW.

It doesn't make sense

2010-10-17T23:45:00.003+08:00

"I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love."

I salute mighty broken hearted love.

"Hope is the thing with feathers, that perches in the soul, and sings the tune without the words, and never stops at all."
"Hope is the worst of evils, for it prolongs the torments of man."

Not hoping produces an empty heart, without hope there's no happiness, no sense of accomplishment. For not feeling is worst that feeling tormented, dare to dream.

I am currently trapped in this little bubble of unexplained misery when there's nothing to be miserable about. I don't think what I am living is Life right now. Because you are suppose to move forward in it but I think I am stagnating if not heading backwards. I hate it when my smile hurts sigh. Missing billions of unlikely people I bet they don't even know.

HI

2010-08-30T16:59:00.001+08:00

HELLO I LUV POPCORN ^^

Heheheh ♥ ♥ ♥

2010-08-20T23:51:00.001+08:00

[23:03:25] (ap)Kemei says:
meeeee?!?!

[23:03:47] Ruimin says:
HAHHAHAHA YES YOUUUU!

[23:04:04] (ap)Kemei says:
hows life!??!?!
[23:04:11] (ap)Kemei says:
spamming this is so fun!??!?!?!?!

[23:09:19] Ruimin says:
HAHAHAHAHA
[23:09:26] Ruimin says:
?!?!?!?!?!!?!
[23:09:40] Ruimin says:
i was playing guitar just now?!?!?!!?

[23:09:52] (ap)Kemei says:
me too omg?!!??!?!!?
[23:09:57] (ap)Kemei says:
since damn long!?!?

[23:09:58] Ruimin says:
I was trying to play almost lover?!?!?!?!!?

[23:10:10] (ap)Kemei says:
did you succeed?!?!!??!

[23:10:25] Ruimin says:
A bit?!?!?!?!?!

[23:10:34] (ap)Kemei says:
i can play it on piano!?!?!?!??!
[23:10:36] (ap)Kemei says:
a bit too!?!?!?

[23:10:58] Ruimin says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA?!?!?!?!!?

[23:11:14] (ap)Kemei says:
have you heard of this site!??!?!?!?
[23:11:16] (ap)Kemei says:
http://lookbook.nu/#more!?!?!!??!

[23:11:31] Ruimin says:
yes OMG IWAS JUST LOOKING AT IT?!?!?!?!?!?!?
[23:11:40] Ruimin says:
LOOKBOOK?!?!?!?!?

[23:11:43] (ap)Kemei says:
omg haha?!?!?!?!?!??!

Sane and Sunny

2010-08-16T23:07:00.001+08:00

My best friends are wcp vanilla latte green tea cream and notes now. (:

I'm rather speechless now, if you ask me to describe my week I don't think I can come up with any adjectives for it. Anyway I feel like locking this thing up, but I don't think I'll because then I will have two secret hiding places, too much negative energy for me. Not quite sure if you understand me cause I am just blabbering on and on. Shall keep this place sane and sunny. (:

Anyway KemeiLee you don't know how huge an effect your
'rest early okay!!
then will have energy to stay happy
aiya if only we're in the same school seriously
if you're dull go listen to the stuff i liked/subscribed in youtube
bet you'll like them'
had on me. (: really need it even thought it may sound so trivial. Youtube brought back so many memories! Miss you so so much. So so so so so much! Wanna go your house someday soon! After all the crazy school stuff. When I really find myself unable to go on in school I sing old chinese songs in my head and pretend you are beside me singing along hehehehe. Anyway I didn't have time to dedicate your HAPPY KEMEI DAY to you three weeks ago ): I was bustling around Singapore. Hope this year hasn't been too hard on you push on when you falter but I am sure you won't. You are so much stronger than I am (: You have no idea how dear you are to me! teehee. Let's jammmmm and sing on top of our lungs someday.

This is still my favourite hee (:

And mag mag mag, haven't seen you in a longgggg while ): I miss those happy days together with you sitting together at the front and all. Remember sec three sleepover at your house? And fish and co. Miss those moments. I think I can never find another person whom I can see good in every single simple thing in life with and who can make me laugh continuously for a whole 40min. Hope you're doing well and stay happy alwaysssssssssss! See you soon!

I am moving inch by inch and I am proud of it. (:

Lessons

2010-08-10T01:36:00.001+08:00

04. Learn to listen, opportunity sometimes knocks very softly.
08. When someone hugs you let them be the first to let go.
09. Never cut what can be untied.
16. Don't miss the magic of the moment by focusing on what's to come.
17. Watch for big problems. They disguise big opportunities.

I feel like watching sad intriguing inspiring movies.
I am addicted to hot vanilla latte with 2 more shakes of vanilla and 4 shakes of chocolate.
I feel incapable and unworthy of love.

2010-08-06T18:01:00.002+08:00

RUIMIN ROCKXZXZXZXZXZXZX

Holga

2010-07-23T02:02:00.001+08:00

I want one so that I can still to turn every ordinary into extraordinary. It's Amazing(:

I'm missing a lot of people. ): Busy peasy itsy bitsy much. ):

Cousins back ( (: ) Taiwan buddy coming soon ( (: ) Neverending workload ( ): ) No time to meet up with TEOSHERMIN LEEKEMEI BABOOMS ( ): ): ): ) I want 1.5 years to pass quickly pass now ( ):< )

24h Is Not Enough. I find myself hopelessly trying to fit so many things into a day accomplish many things. Earth please turn more slowlyyyyyyy.
Anyway, I love my cousins they are so funny hahahaha

HAPPY MAGGGG DAY! (: Hope you had an awesome one! See you real soon k? (:

2010-07-18T22:08:00.002+08:00

“ Our finger prints don’t fade from the lives we’ve touched.

Note to self: Just BREATHE. (:

Remember Me

2010-07-18T01:03:00.001+08:00

Secrets under my pillow

2010-07-16T21:57:00.000+08:00

I was wondering where did the wall I used to talk to went, then I found it here.
I seek assurance and solace.
I need a human pillow. Why ain't anyone perfect for that? you suck ):
I need somebody to walk up to me and tell me in my face "Hi please have faith in yourself, have confidence. I believe in you."
I feel like I am going to explode or reduce into a pile of dust secrets in me in my head churning churning churning killing me inside turning me inside out.

Please pass soon thanks

Thank you wall.

On the other hand, cheer up my dear friends, give you guys a flying kiss (:

To Monster T. ♥

2010-05-18T23:04:00.001+08:00

"Whenever we start talking you know how much we start saying it's like we're drunk cos all the nonsense secrets that we've been hiding from the rest of the world just come out like an everyday story." loveyaloads, October 2009

QOUTE OF THE DAY HAHAHA.
HAPPY SHERMIN DAY!
Anyways love you x10000times on top of the 1465487999697 times I've said love you! Because it's Shermin's Day so I shall not call you Monster here today. MISSSSSSSZSXSZSZSXSZSSXS YOU TRUCKLOADS. Now when I pms/when life sucks I cannot go to school and stare into space until you ask what's wrong and lend me a listening ear/lend me a shoulder to cry on and then make me smile. Sigh. I've got so many things I realised could be trivial and important at the same time and I want to tell someone and the person that popped out is usually you. After all the babbling my point is: You are a very special friend to me and my love for you is your birthday present(haha ok kidding, I know one sec back you were thinking: wth?! no present from ruiMEAN?!). So anw, hope you enjoyed your day. See you soon babezzzzzzzzzzz. (:

(I know kemui v. extra here but nvm this picture of you so nice right! Cause I take one!(: )

2010-05-17T23:35:00.003+08:00

/postsecret

Midway there

2010-05-16T01:20:00.000+08:00

Hi i know I have been neglecting this little space for a while now. While because my life is packed to the max + boring. Work and work and work and work. Comps next week I promise to catch up with allllllll my tutorials after 22nd. And spend more time at home. And be a full time jugger. And and there are more things to look forward to next week (: I don't know what's with me lately tho sigh it's like a mixture of happy sad confused awkward confused cannot be bothered anymore happy down. Anyway the thing that have been keeping me alive for the past few weeks is tkd, as much as it exhaust me. I don't know, maybe it's the people there that makes me happy, or that common goal that got us working, or the large amount of time effort that I've been putting in that matters to me.

You know, last November when O levels ended I planned lots of things for myself and tried to improve every other aspects of my life. I tried to pick up more skills, finally got to self teach guitar, finally got to bake like nobody's business again, finally got to do stuff I truly enjoy. I tried to paint a future of myself in my mind and dreamt of travelling the world, be a great cook/baker, and many other things which I realised are simply products of my naiveness. Because when you grow up work will be ten times more horrible than school and there will not be june and december holidays there will not be anytime for you to slow down and enjoy the world even the world is out there for you the enjoy. Travelling around the world needs money and leisure time is almost nonexistent. There is so much behind a happy family. Suddenly the only thing I see is just working and working and working my ass off throughout my life. And I don't want life to be like that. But you reap what you sow, and it's survival of the fittest. Dreams become nothing. Doing nothing becomes useless.

There are ants crawling all over me I don't know where they come from they just magically appeared and keep tickling me. ):

2010-04-27T21:31:00.002+08:00

Hi I think I'm screwed I want to start everything all over again.
):

Vanilla Twilight

2010-04-20T23:05:00.004+08:00

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you

Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

(: I think Adam Young is a v. sweet guy.

Speed

2010-04-11T23:36:00.000+08:00

I have a huge urge to play defying gravity on guitar now ):

Speech day was fine, met Maddies! And Mr Maddy and Ms L and Mr L. (:

Anyway, yesterday Monster and I had one of our famous LPC(long phone calls) and I love her a lot a lot (: Well teoshermean must stay happy always k no matter what and must take care of yourself! (: lyl! She said things and made me happy, worried about her, amused, worried about myself, amused again, happy again. HAHAHA. The point is, I am super duper mega happy ttm that I finally had a HTHT and I really need it and it was with the right person (:

I like to flip through my photos really fast and watch my life go by, not that I have lead a very long and accomplished life. When I was young I really want to grow up fast but now I want to stop growing. Because when people get older we tend to see more and more shades of grey between black and white. More and more emotions between sad and happy. It's increasingly difficult to see the good in people, increasingly difficult to see the bad in people. The mind of human can become so complex it feels like it could blow up in a matter of seconds. I think I should stop thinking about how life sucks now and appreciate the littlest thing. I want to be who I used to be.

2010-04-02T23:33:00.005+08:00

Hi I died while I was trying to brainstorm for PI. School is more bearable thanks to og mates like Lejing Jasmine Shuting Aaron bk Jerry Michelle and crazy people in class like Huilin and Daniel make me laugh at stupidest things and the cedarians. Other than that there are no teachers for us to throw whipped cream at their faces during aprilfools and the crazy workload and the fact that I speak ten times lesser compared to in cedar for some reason there's nothing else to complain for now. Oh need help for chem and phy! Help. ):

I met Mag the other day (: Tons of laughter. I need to remember this: I owe mag 17 bucks and khad 4 bucks. Can wait for speech dayyyyyyyyy!

I went for a run today! Finally. Training tmr, sunday grading ):

Sometimes I wonder what's going on. ):

And the rattlesnake said,
"I wish I had hands so
I could hug you like a man."
And then the cactus said,
"Don't you understand,
My skin is covered with sharp spikes
That'll stab you like a thousand knives.
A hug would be nice,
But hug my flower with your eyes."

The flower said, "I wish I was a tree,"
The tree said, "I wish I could be
A different kind of tree,
The cat wished that it was a bee,
The turtle wished that it could fly
Really high into the sky,
Over rooftops and then dive
Deep into the sea.

2010-03-21T23:09:00.000+08:00

Hello I've wasted my 5/9 days stuck at home chasing away bugs. >:(
I love Jamie at Home, I want to have a home like Jamie Oliver when I grow up, and that dairy too.And then I can grow my own veggie and bring them into my cosy kitchen and eat in my cosy house!

Oh i still have a ppt that's due tmr. Oopsy.

SEE LAST TIME I HAD THESE:

2010-03-14T00:08:00.001+08:00

Mag's fish&co birthday hahahahaha unforgettable! (:

WHY IS SCHOOL/LIFE SUCH A BORE NOW??????????????????????????

Hi I am in need of Strepsils who can help me buyyyyyyy thank you?
Eeee I keep looking at my photos on fb can't help it lah. See I reminisce and reminisce. I have a feeling it will be two horrible stressful fastforwarded I am going die years. I shall EMBRACE THE FUTURE.
Eeeee I keep saying Eeeee. How. I think I should change word soon. Eeeee.

2010-02-25T23:04:00.002+08:00

Sometimes when I thought school is finally somewhat enjoyable I end up feeling so apprehensive again I really really don't like the fact that some of the people that are so different from the people I'm exposed to times like this I really miss my friends and 4M so much but they seemed to move on with life and I am stuck at the same old place dealing with all kinds of really-small-problems-blown-huge people think and say different things I really want to talk to someone but there's no one because I'm afraid they say and think different things I end up not being myself and disliking what I did this really sucks now I finally understood what hoiyan and sheriel felt when they saw 4M because I feel like bursting into tears right now because I miss them like shit.

):

2010-02-17T20:41:00.000+08:00

I love and miss MADness like shitzzzzzzzzsz, cause I cannot picture my current class doing this.
I miss the girls plus the teachers. I'm totally myself there. Oh but I effing got chased out of the hall because I'm wearing fbts?!

Anyway I finally got my uniform.
I feel really dumb in hc.
Tkd is so fun hahaha, esp with sheriel!
I'm kind of confused with life right now, cause so many things are happening.
I MISS MY FRIENDS ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT.
I have lots of homework.

2010-01-26T01:17:00.000+08:00

I am so bored I tried to watch movies online but it kept restarting itself ): So guess what I did? I went to www.engrish.com and entertain myself teehee.See what kind of entertainment I resort myself to.

Opps, what happened to waxing???

Today I tried to save Guitar Harvey. Hooray.

2010-01-16T23:25:00.004+08:00

After the Guitar Harvey Broken Neck Incident, I think I left it in the-downstairs-room, all forgotten. I knowwwww, I am sorry. Anyway, I was walking by the the for-galangguni-pile today, and I saw the guitar lying there. I picked it up and realised it still plays despite its broken neck! So I mopped dust off and started to tune it. And and, the 3rd string broke ): But it's okay, it can still be played. So I continued to tune it. And I tried some chords (w/ imaginary 3rd string of course). Hallelujah, it works (: (: (: and I tried playing The Show by Lenka. After a while, the chords sounded weird. I tuned it again. and again. and again. Can't it just stay the way I want it to? Well, I've tried...

I happen to be watching some show about an owner and a dog. I really can't stand it. Okay, I understand that the owner had spent 16 years with the dog and would hate to see her go (believe me, I went through it before), but goodness sake, I think she's absolutely doing no good to her. The dog is in so much pain and she refused to let it go peacefully. She had to dress the dog up, bring her to photo shoots, bring her to a wedding, make her wear heavy pearls... If you love her so much you should allow her to stop suffering and let her go in peace my dear. ):

Okay backtrack, anyway, guitar harvey cannot be saved, to my very dismayyyyyyyyyy. I really want a guitar though. Somebody, please?

Tee Hee It's a Melee

2010-01-15T23:07:00.003+08:00

Hi I love big big big big room and huge huge huge huge window and a Goliath wooden door and a massive amount of sunlight and sunwarmth. They were in my dreams yesterday.

I am so eggcited because I am currently revamping the-downstairs-room and I'm quite certain it will be the room I'll spent most of the time in in the future(except at night :[ ) and I can't decide the wall colour! I want custard yellow but Mrs Mommy says "Aiyo, what a dirty colour." >:/ Yellow is a DIRTY colour??? hmph. So I am considering off white red but I don't want it to look like pink. I just want an off white red, do you get what I mean? Sigh.

I am so eggcited because I am currently learning pieces off the pianooooooooo, something I thought I had enough of but apparently not. Because history repeats, I decided my present shall not be a guitar.

I am so eggcited because I am going to have an unknown present till I make a decision but I can't make the decision now cause I don't know wth I am lacking, so it's like a present waiting to happen. (: I hope you get it.

I feel so contented cause I made full use of my holiday and I more or less happily crossed out the After-Os-To-Do-List which I so excitedly produced in the midst of O levels.

I think I uses the word "Hi" excessively this few weeks. Maybe I should use "Hey" and "Hello" more often. But I don't like "Hey" I don;t know why I just don't really like it, sorry.

Did I tell you my newest favourite singer is Lenka? Even though I like her only when she's singing.
Currently my mind is playing Skipalong, Replay, Ain't No Sunshine (When She's Gone), The Show. (:

Ain't no sunshine when she's gone.

2010-01-14T23:31:00.003+08:00

Ain't no sunshine when she's gone.
It's not warm when she's away.
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
and she's always gone too long
anytime she goes away.

Flying Fingers = Impressiveness.

I want to be good. So that I look down and see flying fingers.

Maybe I made my decisions too hasty. I think I make hasty decisions. ): Oh btw, Kemei stop coming over here and declare yourself mad, even though I appreciate your courage for facing your madness. (: Oh btw, bye bye. (hahaha sorry for stealing your way of bidding goodbye)

p.s. Hi Shermin cheer up! (: Sorry for being tired and refusing long phone call that day, which makes me a pig and you a monster (: I really hope you don't give b-owling(-oozing) a skip heehee cause later we don't have this kind of time to see each other so frequently howwwww ): But it's okay we can meet up later if you don't feeling like doing B stuffs haha SMILEEEE.

2010-01-13T20:45:00.002+08:00

La la loo loo loo na na na na na like my ipod's on replay
I'm mad

2010-01-13T16:04:00.002+08:00

YAY

2010-01-10T23:43:00.000+08:00

Just now while I was brushing my teeth, I suddenly wondered who on Earth was the first to decide to put soap in his mouth in attempt to clean his teeth on one fine sunny day.

2010-01-09T00:25:00.000+08:00

I hat cramps I hat cramps I hate cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hate cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps I hat cramps .

Sorry if you have to hear this every other month but I Really Hate It It Hurts A Hell Lot I Want It To Go Away But It Won't It's Killing Me Hot Water Bottles Doesn't Work Like It Suppose To Do Why Do I Get Horrible Cramps While Others Don't Please Go Away Go Away Go Awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

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Oh Kemei's internet has revived.

Flying Time Traveller ):

2010-01-07T17:07:00.003+08:00

I have just filled my my cookie jars with...

Taaa da, Almond Oatmeal Cookies! (:
I love it it is officially on my Regular Recipes list.

I spent my whole yesterday on Sentosa's Siloso B, first with Long Time No See Sectwo Buddies :D
Then dinnerdate with LeeHeeHeeHee, who brought me sushi and unroasted peanuts.

Apparently, Eleventh is the big day, and I try not to think about it and it doesn't really matter and I really clueless about what to expect so I don't know what to do and think anyway...
Okay I'm talking jibberish nonsense. See I shouldn't even mention about it.

Oh by the way I don't like the way things and people are right now.