Ok today was bad it's been really long since I felt this way, on the verge of killing people. But after eating three portions of tiramisu to ease my hunger washing up and plucking in earphones I'm half better.
Something for you to rape the replay button and melt to bits. (;

WHY ARE THEY ALL SO CHARMING??? I WANNA HUG LIAM.

Future

Old feelings do haunt loitering hearts. Options after options, they extend forward and play out in the dark behind closed chilly lids reminding my very exhausted mind that it's still me playing against my conscience after all. And then Dalai Lama's words, they bring me to sleep.
"And then he is so anxious about the future he does not enjoy the present; result being that he does not live in the present nor the future."
Somewhere along the line.

When it's morning the comfort is well gone because as wise as it is, it contradicts responsibilities. But at least there is no more dark to battle. 

I guess I need the sun

Coffee, book, bed, sunlight, gigantic window. Stubble, meadow, lips, lap, wind, sunlight. Lone walks, sunlight, street lamps, street. Plane, adventure, travel, holiday.

Deep in the meadow, under the willow
A bed of grass, a soft green pillow
Lay down your head, and close your sleepy eyes
And when again they open, the sun will rise

Deep in the meadow, hidden far away
A cloak of leaves, a moonbeam ray
Forget your woes and let your troubles lay
And when again it's morning, they'll wash away

Here it's safe, here it's warm
Here the daisies guard you from every harm
Here your dreams are sweet and tomorrow brings them true
Here is the place where I love you.


The Hunger Games is the most thought-provoking heartbreaking series. I really wouldn't want to watch the movie if not for my itching curiosity because I will hate it if it alters any impact the books have already had on me. On another note if Peeta were alive and real I would love him wholeheartedly for his incredibly big heart.